Entering the shadows, touching grass, and leveling up my writing

After a great healing session, I'm finding my voice, my presence, and my space.

This past week, I engaged with a therapist/coach. I used coach because I’m moving beyond state-regulated therapy. While a therapist is usually 99% the best course of action when you’re starting out, at some point, you start crossing the boundaries of what’s deemed acceptable by the government.

I also engaged Satya for a Tantrik Healing session on 4/20. I’ve been delving into my shadow, and the reading and sound healing session is opening my spirit to new places.

I’m journaling at bedtime and in the morning.

I’m not sure where this is going, but I know it’s going where it needs to go.

Working hard

This past weekend was finally an open weekend to just catch up on home life. I spent the majority of Saturday and Sunday outside working the yard.

First up was breaking down the cedar tree that I previously took down. It was roughly 2 feel in diamenter, and was topped at one point. I’m guessing it stood roughly 12 feet high. I’m not committed to forresty yet so it was hacking little chunks with my Milwaukee electric chainsaw with a 16” bar.

There’s something about touching the ground, feeling connected to the earth, and also doing hard work. Our bodies were made to survive and work in conditions beyond our imagination. Modernity has created softness where hardness once existed.

I don’t have the tools for the job, but it’s also working with what you have, rather than going out and buying your way through things.

If I don’t have a professional gas chainsaw with a long bar, it’s making multiple cuts, waiting for the battery to charge, and persistance.

Moving rounds, lifting things, and hauling material back and forth creates functional strength. Over the course of the season, my body will adapt to this hard work and what was once hard, will be easier.

The hard work comes with the benefit of knowing that my hands created this.

Ms. Chubbicorn and I are also shifting our mindset when it comes to yardwork. It’s too easy to value our time, then justify why we should hire landscapers to come and finish the job.

Instead, this work is meditative.

This work is work.

This work is living.

It gets us back in touch with life, connected to the value of work, and to get out of the echo chamber.

Paid 80 coming soon

Thank you for being a subscriber, and for reading this far. You are amazing.

Some time in the next few letters, I’m going to turn on paid subscriptions. I haven’t decided yet, but I think I’m going to keep the stories of my journey free, but paywall the research and experimentation.

I’m enjoying this path.

I’m find joy in writing these letters.

I find value and reading them back.

My prayers and love to you, your family, your community, and the collective consciousiness that is this blue planet.